why did I order that pizza?

Why do I keep ordering pizza I don't want to eat?

Background facts:

I love the homemade pizza I had as a child.

I love the pizza we had in Rome

I cannot replicate those pizzas here in the Midwest in my home.

No one else can either.

Dissecting what happens:

I start craving pizza. I haven't had it in months.

I start thinking about pizza and how much I enjoyed it in the past.

I start plotting -- I could have pizza soon.

Then I order some pizza .

I feel a glow of happiness-pizza is coming. yea!

Pizza arrives and it's not the like the pizza from my childhood or Rome.

I am disappointed in the pizza and don't enjoy it.

Wait about 4-6 months and it happens again! and again. and again.

I realize that occasionally I am a slow learner.

Grasping at straws I hope that if I write about it perhaps next time I won't order the pizza.

It's worth a shot, we'll see what happens come May.

Feel free to share tips on how you handle this, because it may not be pizza for you, but I bet there is something.

p.s. why yes this pizza may be a metaphor...