It has been four months since I have had a new low on the scale. At first I was patient because weight loss in never linear. I have been pleased that I have been maintaining within a ten pound range.
But the truth is I don't want to maintain, I am not at maintenance weight. I want to keep on losing another 40+ pounds.
These past 4 months were not wasted. I feel that I have been learning a lot. How to travel both for work and vacation and balance out my eating plan. I have been doing a lot of mental work to accept that I need to change old thoughts that don't serve me and contributed to my weight issues.
I don't want to be a foodie anymore. I want to find other healthy ways to celebrate and commemorate important events in my life. I don't want to spend much time trying out new recipes or creating new dishes or eating at new places. I do better when my food choices are limited. I don't want to turn to food to buffer discomfort. I want to be okay with the fact that in order for the end result to change what I put into it needs to change also. I want to keep learning and growing and I want to accept things that aren't easy.
It's interesting to me that these are not universal at all. Other people may need to change other stuff in order to lose. There are plenty of thin people who can be foodies or cook a lot or bake or celebrate with lots of feasting. Currently this is not me.
Primed with this insight I am going to start tweaking things with more deliberation if I don't see a new scale low in 2 to 3 weeks. We'll see what happens. It will be interesting no matter what.
But the truth is I don't want to maintain, I am not at maintenance weight. I want to keep on losing another 40+ pounds.
These past 4 months were not wasted. I feel that I have been learning a lot. How to travel both for work and vacation and balance out my eating plan. I have been doing a lot of mental work to accept that I need to change old thoughts that don't serve me and contributed to my weight issues.
I don't want to be a foodie anymore. I want to find other healthy ways to celebrate and commemorate important events in my life. I don't want to spend much time trying out new recipes or creating new dishes or eating at new places. I do better when my food choices are limited. I don't want to turn to food to buffer discomfort. I want to be okay with the fact that in order for the end result to change what I put into it needs to change also. I want to keep learning and growing and I want to accept things that aren't easy.
It's interesting to me that these are not universal at all. Other people may need to change other stuff in order to lose. There are plenty of thin people who can be foodies or cook a lot or bake or celebrate with lots of feasting. Currently this is not me.
Primed with this insight I am going to start tweaking things with more deliberation if I don't see a new scale low in 2 to 3 weeks. We'll see what happens. It will be interesting no matter what.
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