not a happy post

*warning if you are depressed you may want to skip this one*

You know what sucks way more than work?
People you know dying.

I am left with eyes full of tears I can't shed for a nice person I only got to meet a couple of times. I never had the time to shoot him an email last spring. Because I was so busy. With work. The reminder was on my fridge for months.

Then I felt guilty, then my sour dough starter died, then I gave up, thinking 'eventually I'll get a new starter and email him...'

None of that matters now. I realize once again how hard it is to balance my life, to take care of myself and those I love and to work. I know nothing.